​Aiden My Angel

“This story is not based on
fiction or fantasy, but a story

of true and beautiful love. A

love that was full of life and

color, that was never dull or

quiet. A love that was truly one

of a kind. We had a beautiful

beginning and a wonderful

middle sadly however we

never got our happily ever

after…”

Aiden and I first met in our

Freshmen year of High school in our English class, lets say it wasn’t

exactly love at first sight. In fact we practically hated one another, we

were constantly at each others throats and we were both too stubborn and

hot headed to get past this strange wall of anger that had been built

between us. Towards the middle of Freshmen year we had finally reached

talking terms, and by the end of it we were hanging out everyday at lunch

and almost every other day outside of school, but Sundays were the one

day we were always together because we both attended the same church.

We were constantly questioned if we were dating and all that he and I

could do was laugh. We were best friends and the thought of people seeing

us as more than that seemed simply ridiculous.

Time went on and as Freshmen year ended and the summer began Aiden

and I began to spend more and more time together and became practically

inseparable. We each had our summer flings with other people but nothing

serious, at the end of the day though there he and I were sitting on my

patio with a drink in our hands and simply laughing and just talking about

the people we met, the things we’ve done, and places we’ve been seen over

the summer. Before we knew it Sophomore year had finally began. We

were finally getting out of that awkward stage of high school and moving

up the food chain. Able to drive and at the age where we could finally get

a part time job, well at least Aiden could considering that his birthday was

a day before school started and mine wasn’t until September.

On the first day of school Aiden picked me up in his shiny silver cobalt,

not his car of choice but still a car. When arriving at school every one

thought that we had finally started dating, much to their dismay we told

them we weren’t. Time seemed to have flown by it was September and my

birthday was less than 3 days away, I could practically taste the slight

freedom I would soon receive. On Friday the day before my birthday halls

were bustling and excited, ready for the nights football game against our

biggest rivals. I had intended on going with Aiden, that was until I found a

note in my locker inscribed to me. Opening it, it read “Wear something

nice tonight, I have a surprise for you. I’ll pick you up at 7. -Aiden”

I was confused, what was Aiden up to? Rushing home I got ready and

began to turn my clean room into a unbelievable mess with mountains of

clothing. DING DONG. Aiden had arrived right when I slipped on a

yellow sundress. I ran down stairs to greet him, he actually surprised me

with how good he cleaned up. We walked to his car and we headed off to

the city, to my surprise he took me to a nice Italian restaurant and after we

had finished we headed to the beach right when the sun was setting. We

walked by the water and just talked, as the sun finally set fireworks had

suddenly began. It was beautiful and absolutely perfect, I couldn’t believe

that Aiden came up with this, he was more romantic than I thought. As the

light show ended we walked back towards his car when he suddenly

stopped us for a moment. “Autumn..” He said looking at me. I could see in

his eyes that there was something wrong. “What is it?” I asked unsure.

“There is something I need to tell you that I’ve wanted to say to you for a

long time now… and it’s been killing me. So.. here it goes.” I stood there

for a second and began to chuckle. “I can’t believe I’m doing

this.” ..”Aiden what is it?” I felt my heart begin to skip. “Autumn… I love

you. I have for a long time… I just never got the chance or rather I was

way to scared to tell you. I don’t want this to change us, and I’m not

looking for you to say it too. I just I can’t keep going without telling you

this, cause it’ll make me sick.” He finished and simply looked at me. I

didn’t know what to do or what to say. “Aiden…” I was in shock. “Like I

said Autumn I’m not looking for you to say it back, I just want you to

know.” He flashed me a smile and slowly turned around.

I stood there petrified. What was this going to do to us? Would it change

everything? Of course it would, I was just too afraid to see it clearly or

even think about it. I began to walk and I started to realize that this whole

time somewhere inside of me I had feelings for him too, I had just

repressed them. I was scared but, I guess it’s true that you do fall for your

best friend. I looked up and Aiden was already by his car waiting for me,

all of a sudden I was running. He saw me and began to walk my way and

and in an instant I was holding and kissing him. “I love you.” I said with a

smile stretched across my face.

I could see in his eyes that he was astonished yet as happy as could be.

That amazing night I will forever remember because it was the happiest

day of my life, September 3rd, 2007.

Days flew by, then weeks, months, and even years. Attending Christmas

and Summer vacations with our families who were more than happy that

we were finally together, night outs into the city to get dinner, double

dates with our best friends, and even voted prom king and queen by our

friends senior year. We were in love, blissful and beautiful love. Soon

enough we were sitting together at graduation looking back on some of

our best memories. The fall after we graduated we attended Virginia Tech

together, still as strong a couple as we were in high school. Things were

perfect, but like every perfect moment it ends. In the middle of our

freshmen year of college I noticed that Aiden was loosing weight and

something seemed wrong, he was becoming sick more often than usual

and he was tired all the time. It was unlike him and I was beginning to

worry, but every time I asked him if he was okay all he said was he’s fine

or he has a bug. He was never a good liar, and he knew it because every

time he told me he was “fine” his eyes became big and his face grew pale.

In mid December we we’re in my dorm watching a movie while cuddled

up on the couch when out of no where he let out a blood curdling cry of

agony a sound that I will never forget. I called 911 and the paramedics

were there within a few minutes, as they loaded him on the gurney and

took him to the ambulance I was a frantic mess. I didn’t know what was

going on, I was scared I would loose him but I knew that I had to stay

positive. I raced to my car and followed behind the ambulance until we

reached the hospital. As they took him into the ER I stood in the waiting

room impatiently waiting to hear from the doctor. Two hours later Dr.

Richards came into the waiting room, I raced up to him ready for answers.

“Doctor what’s going on, is he okay?” I asked quickly.

“He’s resting right now and you can go see him if you’d like, the cancer is

really taking it’s toll on his body.”

“I’m sorry did you say cancer?” I said in shock.

“Yes I did… I’m sorry did you not know?” He was confused. “No… he

never told me..” He lied to me, Aiden never told me about this, any of it.

“Autumn, he has pancreatic cancer, the cancer has spread beyond the help

of chemo or radiation.”

“Wh- what does that mean? He’s going to die?”

“I’m afraid so. I’m terribly sorry.”

“How long?”

“I diagnosed him a month ago, but because the cancer is at an advanced

stage I give him 5 months, 8 if he’s lucky.”

“5 months? That’s it?”

“I truly am sorry.” I stood there silent.

“Can I see him now?” I asked through tears.

“Of course.” We walk through the double doors past patients and working

nurses and doctors. We had finally made it to Aiden’s room where he was

resting.

“I’ll leave you two alone.” He closed the door behind him.

I stood there not moving just looking at Aiden, and when he looked back I

could see in his eyes that he knew. “Doc told you huh?” He chuckles.

“How can you be laughing?” I say astonished. “Autumn..”

“Don’t… you knew this whole time and you… you never said anything. Not

one word.” I felt the tears coming.

“I tried to tell you… but the face you have right now was exactly what I

was scared of seeing if I told you.”

“So what you were just going to wait until you were dead for me to find

out?!” I couldn’t hold my anger anymore.

“No! Because I wanted us to be as normal as we could! I… I don’t want

things to change Autumn, I don’t want this to change us. I don’t want the

rest of what ever I have left spent in a bed just waiting for me to rot and

die.” His voice was beginning to crack. I was speechless, I knew then why

he didn’t say anything. He was scared just like I was, and there I stood

feeling like a big bag of s–t.

I walked over to him and sat on the edge of the bed taking his hand.

“Aiden that’s not going to happen I promise. And I’m sorry, but you and

me, we don’t have secrets, we never have. So from this moment on, no

more secrets. Deal?” He smiles. “Deal.” I kiss him on the head. From that

moment on there were no secrets, no more hiding, no more tears, and no

more sadness. From that moment on our love was brighter and stronger

than ever. We spent every waking moment together just taking advantage

of the time we had left. Two months passed then three and as I began to

have hope things took a turn for the worst, at four months Aiden wasn’t

able to walk much or stand, his health was decreasing rapidly and his body

was steadily loosing its mass. It was hard for me to watch him endure this,

but I wasn’t going to leave him.

I remember April 12th 2011 like it was yesterday. We were sitting in the

hospital like the days earlier. He was laying in bed as I was reading him a

book. “You wanna know something?” He asked looking at me, his voice

almost inaudible.

“What?”

“Sometimes I imagine that you and me are like people in a book that fall

in love and have a happily ever after. I’m jealous of them though, because

I won’t ever get my happily ever after with you.”

“Aiden..” I put down the book and sit on the bed. “Lets worry about the

here and now okay? Besides we had a great fairy tale of our own though.”

“You made a a great princess Autumn, better than all the others.” He said

making a smile as big as he could. “And you were a terrific prince that

sweep-ed me off my feet.” I laid next to him and he kissed the top of my

head. “I love you baby.” He whispered.

“I love you too.” And the tears began.

We fell asleep together that night and at 1:09 am on April 13th, 2011

Aiden Wyatt Montgomery passed. Some how I knew that night we spent

together would be his last and in a way I guess I accepted it I certainly

wasn’t okay with it however, but I knew that he was in a much better

place.

It has been over a year since Aiden passed and not a day goes by that I

don’t think about him or miss him. He was everything to me, my love,

hope, inspiration, partner, confidant, and prince. Many people have their

ideas of love and have many different experiences. Love can come and go,

but the memories never fade. Love really is like a fairy tale, the prince

and princess fall in love, they face a bumpy road and an adventure along

the way, and they live happily ever after. Sadly that isn’t the case for me

because my book keeps going even though I wanted it to end with Aiden.

If I have learned anything from being with him, it’s that love is never

perfect but it’s stronger than anyone could ever imagine, it just has to be

put to the test. Where ever Aiden may be I will never forget him and I will

always love him.

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